Knowing that something bad will happen is not as useful as you would think. For many years, I was able to write off my odd synchronistic events to coincidence or a vague sense of order in the universe. But eventually the warnings became so frequent and occasionally dramatic, I could no longer dismiss the pattern.

While growing up, when I had an out of place thought that something was not right, I attributed it to being a high strung worrier, which I am.  Being raised in a good Christian rural home had taught me to discount magical thinking outside of the biblical framework.  Of course, for my parents, their fundamentalist beliefs would not count as magical thinking.

As an adolescent,  I tried very hard to interpret my odd awareness as a spiritual gift in the Christian sense. But as I became older, I finally gave up trying to hold to the fundamentalist biblical world view. Now I stay far away from dogma and institutionalized religion. I am still a spiritual person who feels strongly that we have a level of existence beyond the physical. But I want to explore that for myself, not have someone else tell me what to believe.

I have always had a strong interest in the sciences, including science fiction. So following the principle that magic and technology are often indistinguishable, I began to research everything that might somehow explain my experiences. So far, I have learned that quantum physics has begun to explore the idea that future events may interact with the present. Since a critical element of my experience is the nature of time, I am fascinated with the cutting edge debates on the nature of time.  Perhaps my experiences can in some small way contribute to that exploration.