The quest to understand my ‘future sense’ continues, but as I look to scientific experts for answers I find the promise of enlightenment keeps fading the deeper I dig.  Struggling to learn about physics, cosmology and neurology, I begin to feel that despite all we have learned, we still have the blind leading the blind.  As I keep digging, I find leaders in these fields looking for the same kinds of answers.  But the questions are too small to open the doors needed to find what we are looking for.

My questions may take me into a wild frontier, but I am willing to consider the possibilities and share my thoughts.

Does precognition require that the future be fixed and unchangeable?  No, I get plenty of warnings ‘in time’ that allow me to avoid the implied consequences. Yes, some who prefer a set future, will argue pre-determination and say that I was destined to avoid those. Unfortunately, I also miss some, which has helped me learn the ‘rules’.  I now often ignore the warnings that are minor.  At first I ignored them because they seemed too silly to bother with.  Now, I am usually able to tell that they are real.  By going on alert and watching for the consequence without taking evasive action, I try too polish my ability to ‘interpret’ the warning by matching it up to the results.  Some events do seem to be much harder to avoid, so that even with the warning and the evasion, I still manage to end up with the consequences. Perhaps they are mitigated in some way, but some events seem more fixed than others.

If the future is malleable, then are there all probabilities in play at all times?  No, my ongoing daily experience suggests that there is a flow and momentum toward and around a few set events.  I think of it as being in a small boat on a lazy river.  If I watch the way the water moves ahead of me, I can infer the location of hidden boulders that could damage the boat.  I can’t tell the exact nature of the obstacles, but I can feel a disturbance in the flow.  I can try to avoid the obstacles, but sometimes the current is stronger and I hit them anyway.  At times, rarely, it seems that even extraordinary effort can’t avoid the event.  Then there are the points int he river where another river joins and pushes me along faster and in a new direction.  The most rare future warnings come on slowly and build up a tremendous internal pressure in a particular life event direction.  These life pivot points are so powerful that even if I resist and go the other way, many circumstances will arise that make resisting the ‘planned’ direction more and more difficult and miserable.  Eventually, I have to give in to the life change direction that I apparently should go in just to avoid the cascading negative consequences of resisting.

So now I am thinking of my ‘future sense’ less as ‘sight’ and more like ‘sonar’.  If you have ever tried to figure out exactly what a fishing scanner has found in the water beneath your boat, you will understand what I mean.  It gives you some idea of distance and scale, but no details.  My experience suggests that there is an echo from future events to now.   It is almost as if the emotional impact of the event in it’s own ‘when’ then kicks back an echo into it’s past.  It then works a little like a reverse memory.  Just as seeing a item may remind you of one you saw before, encountering a circumstance that ties to a future event triggers a minor reverberation – future emotions bouncing off of now and creating a noticeable disturbance in the flow of thought.  Since the echo of the future seems to be more of an emotional event and not a rational/analytical thought process, perhaps the ‘future sense’ is really a consequence of quantum forces at play in the function of the sub-conscious and emotion.  Could the fact that my physical self is present in both the past that encountered the echo and the future which experienced the event/emotion be the link?  Would the same molecules from two points in ‘time’ have a form of quantum entanglement just as two parts of the same whole separated by space?

Is time an illusion?  In some ways yes, the idea of a rigid linear progression is an illusion, which I believe is created by our brains trying to make sense of too much input.  So in the practical sense that most people do experience time in a similar linear way, it is functionally real.  There is decay and entropy, which tends toward disorder.  We measure the cycle of orbits and half-life of decay to establish conventional units of measure for communication and coordination.  At the macro scale these conventions of measuring progression serve a very useful purpose, to allow us to coordinate activities as a society.  But when we drill down into the underlying forces at work, the illusion starts to slip.  When I speak into a phone and when I am heard are not exactly simultaneous.  An orbital cycle is not exactly identical every trip around the star.  Half-life decay can be partially reset by cosmic events.  Anything I perceive with my senses glosses over tremendous detail and variation.  My mind attempts to apply order to match each experience to a pattern and find an appropriate way of dealing with the situation, even to the point of overriding the sensory input if it does not fit.  So, I remain unimpressed with any definition of reality that presumes that human observation and measurement are inherently concrete and substantial.